doubtful...dillema....

i could consider myself done a braveful and stupid thing i guess...but though its stupid i still wan to do so i guess...
im not sure whether your pm refers to me or not but i still want to comment on it...if it's really referring to me after reading my blog yesterday then i am happy but i don't want you to be sorry...all i hope is what i hope and it's so greatly returned in my blog as u have read...
maybe not now but at least just show me a sign on whether its crash and burn for me or fly with colors for i am so in a dillema now...
once i watched a show before, it shows and tells me that no matter how hard and tough the road is between u and the person that u like or love...one must still jian chi until the end and do not give up on either one side of individual...well, i dare to say that it's what i am doing for so long after we separated and like i said before i tried forgetting but CAN'T... so, i come to a conclusion where if u really can't make urself forget someone why not try not giving her up whereas patch things up...patch things up here does not mean that we continue from where we stopped before as i am purely referring to a fresh new beginning and maybe that may not be so suffering as compared to tryin to let u go off...
well, too much for a guy to just say it but on the other hand the other party do not wants a fresh over...so it's still depending on you...
frankly speaking, i still did not know why you wanted to separate initially and till now is still a huge question mark for me...izzit b'cos surrounding sayings..??? influence...??? cos u noe tellin me that spending too little time for an excuse isn't what i want to hear for a reason and more of a reality its not that reason...i am sure it's some other reason.... i've only been away for a period of 3 months and the time we separated is during the 3 months time when i am away...
haih...., really wish to know the truth...or maybe it's already u are giving the true reason but this also does not mean that we could not come over for a fresh beginning...