tough day

yet again, another tough day passed and i wonder how much more i will need to go through...???
feeling miserable and sad followed by heart ache was what i was a month ago and it recovered...though it recovered but in a single particular night that sadness came pop-ing out again...is it because im still unable to let go of you..???or is it just the memories and things that u had given me that i could not let go...??? "i dont't know"
this still remains a big question deep inside me... i used to get emotional whenever i hear the song "wo bu xiang wang ji ni" and after some time, i stopped being so but not in recent time...i became more and more obsessed wit the song playin it again and again whenever im alone and in down mood times...

sometimes, i hesitate on whether did i make the correct choice of keep tryin to let go of you and start over a new life with new me and aims...although i've tried so long and so hard...i still FAILED to do so...is it because i am really still holding the same old feeling as i used to have and refused to let go...??? "i don't know"
i really hope that time could turn back and i would make sure everything isn't ended up the way it is now and instead trying very hard to make things perfectly well for both...well, it's too late...
rite now, i can only hope for a new and fresh beginning...would you be kind enough to let me start off with this fresh start or will u just let me hang myself half way in the air as i am now until the day i can't afford to hold the strings and let myself go and hang to end of the road...